Christmas Spirit

My apartment is decorated and I have been trying to get into the Christmas spirit but I feel the beginning of winter has hit hard and I feel a bit like I am failing. I have had a couple of weeks where I have been very unfocused at work and all I have been wanting to do in my time off is to sit in front of the TV. I think that I don’t get that real Christmas feeling until I go home and am with my family. No matter how many lights I put up or how many Christmas movies I watch it just isn’t the same. 

So far December has been cold and, while there has been some snow, mostly wet. Add in the darkness that falls way to early for my liking and you get a brain that just isn’t functioning the way I would like. As well as not being able to focus on anything I also had some pretty bad headaches recently, one this week that prevented me from doing something that I had been looking forward too. I feel like I am not excelling at the moment. I wish I could snap out of it.

In the past I have been lucky enough to be able to spend most of December at home with my Mom and Dad. It has always been filled with fun, tree decorating, seeing family, being cozy in the house while watching snow fall outside. Being with family and getting the house ready for the holidays always helps to keep the dark out of my brain at this time of year. I always find it to be a little difficult to be alone before Christmas. Christmas has always been one of the best times of the year and I do feel like a lot of that has do with being home. 

Now don’t get me wrong I have done a couple of fun things during the past couple of weeks. A winter festival with my family that lives here in the city, seeing some friends, and I got to hang out with my brother one night. These things did make me very happy and excited for the season but those type of things are not part of the daily schedule. 

However, in the not so distant future things are looking up. In the coming week I will have a few more opportunities to spend time with the family here in the city doing some Christmasy activities. And I even get to see a concert before heading home for the holiday. I believe that changing my outlook, and maybe getting a bit more sleep, will help to get me in the right frame of mind so that I can enjoy what is to come.

Sorry for the short post. As mentioned I have been struggling to focus this week and it has run over into my writing as well. I am now off to put on something comfy and make myself a cup of tea. Stay cozy my friends and I hope that you are all in the Christmas spirit a bit more than I am.