Head Above Water

For a few years now I have had this dream where I am in the middle of a lake, I can see the shore but no matter what I do I can’t get closer to shore.

After treading water for a while I hear a boat but it passes me by. And that keeps happening…boats carrying all sorts of people keep passing me by.

Then a couple stop but they don’t help me instead they push my head under water. I come up coughing with the boat speeding away.

One day a row boat stopped and I looked up to see your face. A hand reached out and took mine and I didn’t feel as tired as I did.

I took deep breaths and for the first time in a long time I was able to relax.

I felt a sense of calm, I felt safe.

There were times when the water would stir and hit my foot or a finger but those moments felt insignificant thanks to how happy was starting to creep in.

The sun came out and shone on us briefly. Then you looked at me and smiled sadly…”That’s enough” you whispered. You slowly slid me back into the water holding my hand for the longest time.

Eventually you rowed away. I can still make you out in the distant. No matter what I won’t be able to get closer. I don’t know how long you will hover in the distance. I hope that I will always be able to see you there.

You gave me rest and you gave me happy even if only for a short while. For that I will always be thankful.